Suicide

Early this afternoon, as i was looking through facebook, i realized na parang walang tao, i mean, konti lang ang mga frends, wala masyadong kulitan. Then i decided to visit my friendster account.



As i was running through the home page, i noticed a familiar name. For the longest time, he doesnt have any activities going on with his account. Then there it was, he added a frend thus his name appreared on my frends activities.



The next thing i did was to click on the who viewed me button, and there again, i saw that he also viewed my account. Then i decided, without thinking twice, what the heck i might as well look at his account....



My heart was pumping in an unusual why, as if i am on a ledge thinking of jumping off... suicide! When his account opened up, the first thing i noticed was his featured frends. There were four of them, all ladies, 3 of his sisters and his girlfrend. I suddenly felt angry... he never ever put my profile on his featured frends....



Running through his account, i saw his testimonies... there it was, as big as the billboards in Edsa... confirmed, all the truth spilled out.... I jump off the ledge! Suicide...



But wait.... This time someone was there to catch me. My Savior! And He was not alone, he brought with Him his angels... Ate Sani, Mai2, Jajah, Kate, Kuya Dong, Kuya Pico.



For some of them, they might not understood what I really felt, yet they where there to remind me that i am ok, safe already. And for some, who understood, they didnt catch me. They let me experience the pain of accepting the truth, help me absorb reality and then pick me up, dust off the dirt on my face, and embraced me. These are the faces of my Savior!



Mai2 said that i should not deny to him the things he earned, the people that became his frends through the relationship. I should be happy for him.



What a humbling experience! That even in pain, i am called to be a good Christian. I said that i am learning to be happy for him, together with learning to forgive & forget & accept.



And now, i am closing the day with so much adventure! After dinning out at Kinabuchs, I insisted on driving the motorcycle going home. And I did a good job, driving from Semenario up to the gate of my home. A minute later, two frends arrived. We talked and laughed at stuff. And to top it all, i recieved a call from someone, a text from another, and a good night sleep later.



Ah! This is still a very good day for me.