Old Notes, Old Memories

(posted at frendster july 23, 2009)

A friend wants to borrow my notes in some subjects that he is taking in graduate school which I took a long time ago. As i was looking on each and every old folders, my brain created this very very thick and tallest wall so that old memories will not come crushing into my brain. It secreted a hormone for my heart not to feel sad, and lonely. Still, there it was. Just as real as it was two or three years ago.

We enrolled in graduate school, together we accomplished the requirements, paid our fees, took the entrance exam, had the same subjects, with the hope the we will finish it together. We entered the classrooms, sat side by side in every subjects, and walked along Valencia St. up to the terminal. I will always be the one to keep the copies of our classmates' reports and bring it on the next session. Till our classmates, along with our professors team us up for group reports, case study analysis, projects and other activities. I would patiently call him in his office (only to be put on hold for 15 mins, and have to talk really quick, and the phone hang up) to ask him about our case study, in particular the Campbell Company Case Analysis, wherein I would read through the whole 20+ pages, make a swot analysis, find the problem, and draw a solution/conclusion. Then I will report it to the class, satisfying our professor, we both earned the credit. How funny!
Like the hope to finish our graduate school fades away, our relationship is also slipping away. He eventually became very busy in his work when he had his motorcycle. Me, on the other hand, fell in love with someone else. And we are falling apart.

Now that it's almost one year since we decided to part ways, I still have two copies of some of the reports we had during graduate school days. For sure my mother will be very glad if I will put one copy away together with old papers and newspaper to be used in starting to build a fire (for charcoal, for cooking).

Though, I dont have some one to be with me to attend and complete my masters degree, I still have plans to finish it. With the grace of God, just as He nows the desires of my heart in taking away the things I dont need in life, He will feel me with His love and abundance.

By the way, He is the One I fell in love with! God!